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Tuesday, Dec. 16, 2003 - 12:30 a.m. Cost of the War in Iraq
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WARNING!!!! if you know me personally, you may read my diary, but if you do, you take the chance of hearing things you don't want to know, misunderstanding what I've written and being hurt by it. If you are unsure if it is ok to read, save yourself and me the grief and heartache, and ask first!!! Please note that this is a DIARY, ie my subjective feelings, hearsay, suppositions, and outpourings of ranting of the moment. It does not represent objective news, the whole of what I think of a topic or someone, or even a thought-out representation of any of the above. Keep that in mind. Thanks. * Here is a Diary Etiquette Read Me. I am the Unicorn... Innocence Unleashed You are Form 3, Unicorn: The Innocent. "And The Unicorn knew she wasn't meant to Some examples of the Unicorn Form are Eve The Unicorn is associated with the concept of Her sign is the twilight sun. As a member of Form 3, you are a curious
Ack! A Unicorn!! What it says isn't so far off... it is just we associate unicorns with flakiness, not curiousity, Eve or Pandora! It is funny, since my therapist keeps telling me I'm an innocent. I think that is because I sort of approach the world with a wide open face, if that makes any sense. I get annoyed when she says that, since I feel very very far from innocent. But at the same time I am always boggled when people betray me, don't stand by me, let me down, and do stupid incomprehensible things. It is also true that I feel like the woman police officer in Fargo... she has seen it all, and is totally unphased by bodies or earthworms, but still at the end just looks at the bad guy with a "I just cannot believe it" face, and goes "all those people, and for what? I just dont get it". Yup. And I always feel like Charlie Brown... when Lucy says "ok, this time I REALLY won't jerk the ball away, TRUST ME!!" and I fuckin fall for it, and end up on my butt going "good grief" every fuckin time. I'm in some ways like Carrie in the movie. How she doesnt fit in, and is distrustful when the guy, who after all is an ok guy, asks her to the prom. But she gets won over, and decides to go for it. Get all dressed up and gorgeous. And then she actually does believe, maybe her luck is changing when they get picked prom king and queen. Yup, that is totally me. "see, maybe the universe has said i've paid enough and something good, my better angels, are finally going to give me something nice"... and then it was all a set up. I kind of identify with her too, in that, although she is an innocent in a way, she is a hurt, angry innocent with horrible powers to hurt people. And she does. Hurt her long enough or betray her bad enough and you will regret it. She will wreak havoc. And that is how I feel. I try to be understanding, and sympathetic and empathetic and forgiving and flexible. But in the end I fell taken advantage of, I can be mean, mean, mean. Shooting knives with my eyes. Yes, when she crucifies her mother in the doorway with knifes. That is excellent. I have no idea why they remade that movie, except that the clothes were so 1970's bad. Hehe, they are practically in style again!... but Sissy Spacek was the perfect pale translucent faced Carrie. (Scroll down that link page to read interesting facts such as the "pig's blood" in the movie was colored karo syrup, but she was willing to use real blood on her...) Innocence. Beware the innocent for they shall unleash the evil in the world. They know not what they do. ... remember the Unicorn in Tomothy Findlay's Not Wanted on the Voyage. hmmm. read my other entry of tonight Big Snow, and also remember to put your selves on the Bravenet map just under the Pueblo Blessing on the left menu bar. Thanks!! :) "Look at the innocence in my eyes."Poor Ol' Charlie Brown. 1 People have left cute, callous or caring comments on the wench's wordiness!! Go to "notes" instead of comments ps, you'll need to email me for a username and password � previous meanderings - future past Goodbye Michael. May your next life be kinder to you. - Thursday, Jun. 25, 2009 � |
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