Hold on to what is good even if it is a handful of earth.
Hold on to what you believe even if it is a tree which stands by itself.
Hold on to what you must do even if it is a long way from here.
Hold on to life even when it is easier letting go.
Hold on to my hand even when I have gone away from you.
- Pueblo Blessing
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Tuesday, Oct. 28, 2003 - 8:54 p.m.
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No babies in the Dark
8:45 pmSarah MacLaughlin is on the radio. She has been taking time off cuz her mother had cancer and died. And she has had a baby daughter since as well.
Why does there have to be the wonderful good stuff with the bad stuff I can identify with. I want to feel caring towards her for her mother's death. And then when the next sentence is "she gave birth to her wonderful baby daughter"... I want to kick her and go you fucking lucky bitch. My mom was sick, I have had deaths. I have had breakups. Why dont i get a wonderful baby daughter? hmm. It just cuts my compassion, when of course it shouldnt.
That's all i had to say. It is dark out. I have not started working yet. I hate that the time has changed. My light next to my computer is shorted out too, so i am typing only by computer glow. dark.
Later...
6:52 amI am an idiot. Yes an idiot. Once again I wrote a whole new entry in here that took me an hour, and didnt save, and when I went to get some URL's to put as links to book titles I mentioned, my computer crashed. None of the entry was saved obviously. Such a pain in the whatever. It is now nearly 7am and I am going to sleep. Sorry, it was an interesting entry with a photo scan of my arm, a book review, quote and all. Tuff shit. Read my stupid quizilla results from earlier tonight. I am an idiot. zzz me.12:43am... It totally CANNOT be, but IS that actual time. agh. Give me a P... P!! give me an R... R!! give me a O...O!!!..... etc etc and what have ya got? PROCRASTINATION!!!
Gay Bear
Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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Haha! at least that one is abnoxiously cutesy... I mean really, I was hoping for slash and burn care bear or something... not pretty purple with a triangle. But now I have done "what Beautiful Woman are you?" and wow , lovely results...agh!:
You are every goth-kids dream!
Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman are You?
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So do you think it's cuz for body mods I wrote "just the scars"? Or cuz i wrote "raven" for which animal I would like as a pet... heck, I already have a dog and two cats and they are cute and fluffy and loveydovey... a raven is smart and as a bird goes wouldnt need to be in a cage. Haha... every goth-kids dream! No wonder I was attractive to ob... the little punk goth thingie! I was dark AND had sunshine in my yellow bedroom and homebaked bread in the kitchen. The dark and the homey mommy love. And before that I had a farm boy/girl, but not for long and before that i had ANOTHER GOTH KID!! yes, tattoo on the face, thought he was immortal, hitchhiked in the snow at night, drew elf-demons and nick was Crow. haha! Quizilla strikes again! So, any lost goth kids out there want a mommy? You can send me an email, and we can talk if you are good in bed. Love for books is a plus too.
OOH OOOH I looked at all the possible results and I want the Temptress image not the goth dream one! yes yes! anyhowz do the test... fun results.
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previous meanderings - future past
Goodbye Michael. May your next life be kinder to you. - Thursday, Jun. 25, 2009
Taking Care of Your Cows - Thursday, Jun. 25, 2009
Saint Joseph robs the cradle and eats spaghetti - Sunday, Jun. 14, 2009
sticky notes and broken irises - Friday, Jun. 12, 2009
The FOODCOMMANDER - Monday, Jun. 08, 2009
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