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Hold on to what is good even if it is a handful of earth.
Hold on to what you believe even if it is a tree which stands by itself.
Hold on to what you must do even if it is a long way from here.
Hold on to life even when it is easier letting go.
Hold on to my hand even when I have gone away from you.
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Tuesday, Aug. 23, 2005 - 1:30 a.m.

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Sometimes Still Missing

I wish there were more structure in my life. A reason to get up at a particular time. A reason to eat a meal at a particular time. Someone coming home.

Oh well. Eat chocolate. Draw. Walk dog.

I just want to sleep. I am supposed to work. And so everything else, like uploading photos, or writing entries, or going through my old clothes feels like "bad you... sposed to be working". And then I think that if I did those things I would at least have those done. The more I work the less I work.

I miss ob. Yes I still do. I miss ob sometimes very much. I miss friendship and adventures, planning and fun, travelling and love. I tried to tell her that she was so important to me. She never believed me you know. She somehow thought I could be fun alone as one person.

Not so much.

I really miss her sometimes.
It is hard missing someone who can never be in your life.

Forward and onward.
Why does time go through my fingers like sand through a cloud?


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