Hold on to what is good even if it is a handful of earth.
Hold on to what you believe even if it is a tree which stands by itself.
Hold on to what you must do even if it is a long way from here.
Hold on to life even when it is easier letting go.
Hold on to my hand even when I have gone away from you.
- Pueblo Blessing
Thursday, Jul. 14, 2005 - 4:30 a.m.
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A few Expectations of Myself
Third entry tonight.
Let's see... Expectations of Myself In General
... or things that if I don't succeed or do, I berate myself and feel like a failure:
- Be pleasant and cheerful
- Be calm and composed
- Be intelligent and thoughtful
- Be witty and funny
OK, sheesh, just with those four, I can see why I constantly berate myself and feel like a failure! hahaha! Cripey. OK< forward and onward:
- Be a hard worker, diligent and focussed
- Be successful in my career as per rising up into the cream
- Be financially secure independently
- Be on top of things and not feel overwhelmed
- Be empathetic and understanding of all sides and people
- Be kind and caring
- Be a good friend, neighbor, daughter, employee, landlady
- Take care of myself personally: be well-dressed, clean, groomed, healthy via nutrition and exercise
- Be able to provide aid for friends, relatives, my pets and others (via charity)
- Keep the house clean, stay on top of housework
- Take care of my pets: food, health, exercise, lodgings
- Take care of my building, including upkeep and renovations
- Take care of my front and back yards
- Plant, grow and harvest my garden
- Be socially involved with friends and others
- Be socially involved politically and with other nonprofits etc... ie give of myself to society
- Shop and grow most of my own food, make most of my own meals (ie don't order out and eat out all the time
- Be well-read, both in fiction and nonfiction
- Keep learning throughout my life: languages, skills both intellectual and physical
- Do most of my fixing myself (mending, upkeep of house etc)
- Stay sane
Dang, what a list!
I could add
- Be an academic
- Be an artist The last divides into: 1) keep doing my comics page a day 2) be artistically good at my illustrations and develop them over my career and 3) do my own artwork, ie ceramics, painting etc.
Oops, you can tell it has been a long time:
- Be a good girlfriend/ partner: committed, caring, understanding, fun, interesting
- Be a good lover
- Be a good parent
- Create a family of family and friends
OK how many of those am I actually succeeding at? hmmm.
Well, I am succeeding at drinking one coffee a day, minimum.
What a list. It would be good to keep in mind which are a bit much all at once.
cheers,
me
wenchie
Previous entries tonight:
Waterless
Fraidycats
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